This is fact, not fiction... for the first time in years.

      The Title line is from a song that I have always listened to or sang when I was going through a troubled time. The whole song is a complete desperate outcry to the person who has broken the heart of the lyricist. The words sung are so absurd... but so original. Being desperate for someone is one thing... where you simply think of all the great lines you've heard in movies and read in books and repeat those in your mind or to the person. But going beyond desperate... to hopeful hopelessness, or just the latter... that's when you go beyond the standard lines and you begin to think and say ridiculously beautiful lines.

As follows:
      "And when I see you, I really see you upside down.
       But my brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you around...
       turns you around, turns you around..."

What does that even mean? So simple, just a statement of science. But then I make it personal... and I fall in love, and when the final row comes along to decide if I lose most or gain all, I sing this song. And so far, after the final row, I keep on singing this same song. But I think someday I'll be able to sing this:

      "When you feel embarrassed then I'll be your pride,
        When you need directions then I'll be the guide.
        For all time... for all time."

[This is my one emo entry]